Okay, so here's my dilema.

WHEN GAY MEN ARE OBVIOUSLY HITTING ON ME, AND THERE'S A GOOD CHANCE SOME SORT OF SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP WILL OCCUR OUT OF AT LEAST TALKING TO THEM, ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT ARE THE STRAIGHT MEN I'M IN LOVE WITH THAT HAVE NO INTEREST IN ME WHATSOEVER.

I think it's because I have low self-esteem, and when people like me I don't think I'm worthy.

There.

I said it.